I was diagnosed with autism and ADHD after quitting school and several jobs. Knowing how my brain works has changed my life.
- Ellie Middleton was diagnosed with autism and ADHD at 24, after years of struggling at work.
- She started posting about her experiences with neurodivergence on LinkedIn, TikTok and Instagram.
This as-told-to essay is based on a transcribed conversation with Ellie Middleton, a 26-year-old author and creator from Manchester, England. The following has been edited for length and clarity.
I was a high school dropout who couldn't hold down a job. But, two years ago, I learned I had ADHD and autism.
Since my diagnosis, I've done so much I never thought I'd be able to do. I've gathered a large following on social media and published my book, "Unmasked, The Ultimate Guide to ADHD, Autism and Neurodivergence."
I was first diagnosed with anxiety at school
I started having panic attacks in school and getting teary and shaky when I was 15. I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder.
I was also diagnosed with a panic disorder and agoraphobia in 2011 and put on antidepressants.
Throughout school, I felt like I was constantly burned out. In my final year of school, I had to drop out.
I couldn't stay in a job for long
I got a job in the Post Office, but after six months, I got overwhelmed and had to leave.
I then worked in customer service for a bank, but I got overwhelmed and tearful and struggled to leave the house. I left the job after one year.
I accepted that I'd only ever be able to have a basic, entry-level job because I couldn't handle much stress.
I knew I'd never climb the career ladder if, every six months, I had to take a month off. But, at the same time, there was a lot I wanted to do. I had a million ideas.
Working made me bored and exhausted
Putting on a fake voice, making small talk, and making eye contact with people all day left me exhausted.
At the same time, I need a lot of stimulation to keep focused. My brain is overactive. Doing the same thing on repeat was mind-numbing. I'd find myself reading a book while taking a call for my job.
Learning I had ADHD and autism was a relief
I'd taken several different types of antidepressants, and nothing seemed to work. I felt stuck and didn't want to be in the cycle anymore.
I realized I should get tested for autism when I was speaking to my counselor, and she suggested I might be neurodivergent. I looked into it and realized I might have autism and ADHD.
I decided to get tested for ADHD at first because I knew I could get medication for that, unlike autism. I was diagnosed with ADHD in October 2021 and autism the following April. It was validating to know that I wasn't broken. I just didn't know how my brain worked.
I started posting about my experiences
Getting diagnosed was a lightbulb moment. So many people were experiencing what I had. I was lucky to have an answer and I needed to tell people about it.
I knew speaking about it online would increase the chances of other people realizing they had ADHD and autism too.
I was working for a personal branding agency focusing on creating LinkedIn content for CEOs and founders, which encouraged us to post about our work lives on LinkedIn.
I posted on LinkedIn about what it means to "be professional" in 2021. I listed features about me, such as my piercings, which didn't make me any less professional in the post. The post blew up — so many people commented and engaged with it.
I went from having no audience to 10,000 followers from that post.
I grew my audience
I got offered a job at Great Influence, a content-marketing agency, in 2022. I was in a good place to learn more about content creation and building brands.
I started posting about my experiences as a neurodivergent person in the workplace on LinkedIn, TikTok, and Instagram.
Having a neurodiverse brain means I work in different ways to other people. Learning how to work with my brain, rather than against it, has been a game changer.
It means I can generate lots of ideas all the time, communicate a point concisely through posts, and analyze what works well.
After four months, I was hired to do workplace talks and training. I've spoken at companies like Google, Compare The Market, Coca-Cola, and Samsung.
I published a book
I'd built up audiences across platforms by posting every day and live-blogging on TikTok and Instagram about my experiences with autism and ADHD in depth. I have more than 200,000 followers on LinkedIn, 87,000 on TikTok, and 55,300 on Instagram.
But I wanted to do something again that allowed me to explore these issues in depth. I decided to write my book, which was published in October.
It's been amazing to see people reading it and hear how much it means to readers.
Being self-employed has helped me manage my career. If I'm struggling with verbal communication, I can avoid doing calls and just email people instead — or write instead of doing videos.
I have more control over supporting myself and making sure that I don't completely burn myself out.