- Meghan Trainor reflected on the "traumatic" birth of her son in her new book, People reported.
- Trainor, who is expecting her second child, said she was diagnosed with PTSD after giving birth.
Meghan Trainor opened up about having post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) after the "traumatic" birth of her son in her new book, People reported.
The singer, 29, welcomed her and her husband Daryl Sabara's son Riley in February 2021. She and Sabara, who met at a house party in 2014 and have been together since 2016, are currently expecting their second child, Insider previously reported.
In her upcoming book, "Dear Future Mama: A TMI Guide to Pregnancy, Birth, and Motherhood from Your Bestie," set to be released on April 25, Trainor went into detail about her first experience having a child.
She previously told Romper that she had to undergo a scheduled C-section to give birth to Riley because he was in the breech position, meaning he was lying feet or buttocks first in her uterus.
As Insider previously reported, giving birth vaginally to a baby in a breech position can be dangerous because it means the baby's head could get caught in the birth canal and result in asphyxia.
Discussing the birth with People, Trainor said that after she underwent her C-section, she was left alone in the surgery room as Riley had to be immediately taken to the NICU because he was suffering respiratory issues. Sabara accompanied their son.
In the excerpt from her book published by People, Trainor wrote that the drugs helped prevent her from panicking, but that they didn't keep her heart from "breaking."
"I was alone, without Daryl or Riley, and I wasn't sure if my baby could even breathe. Would he be okay? Would Daryl be okay, up there on his own with this crisis? The drugs and the stress made it seem like everything was happening in slow motion," she wrote. "I didn't feel pain, but I could feel the sensation of every tool inside me. I felt and heard a suction tool up by my ribs. I could still smell my own burning flesh."
"Usually when you're being sewn up for 45 minutes, you're like, 'Look at my gorgeous baby. We did it. This is everything.' But I was laying there alone," Trainor told People.
And it wasn't until she was finally allowed to return home with her husband and Riley that Trainor realized how impacted she'd been from the experience.
"I couldn't go to sleep at night. I would be in tears and tell Daryl, 'I'm still on that table, dude. I'm trapped there. I can't remind myself I'm in bed and I'm safe at home,'" Trainor said. "I had to learn how traumatic it was."
She went on to say that with time and therapy, she was able to process the experience and learn from it. Trainor said her therapist told her that the reason why she was reliving the pain of the C-section and crying every night was due to "chemical reactions" in her brain.
"Something's off, and we have to open that up and heal that wound," she said.