Halsey opened up to Zane Lowe about struggling to promote their new album while pregnant.- The singer said some magazines turned her down because they didn't want "a maternity cover."
- "And I was like, 'It's not a maternity cover. It's about my album - I just happen to be pregnant.'"
Halsey recently opened up to Apple
The multi-platinum musician released their fourth album on Friday, "If I Can't Have Love, I Want Power," which explores the "joys and horrors of
"You know, we were going out and trying to set up magazine covers based around the album release, and they were like, 'Yeah, but is she going to be pregnant? Because we don't want to do a maternity cover,'" Halsey told Lowe, according to E! News.
"And I was like, 'It's not a maternity cover. It's about my album - I just happen to be pregnant,'" she continued. "And they're like, 'No, it's a pregnant cover.' And I was like, 'So I can't go talk about my album?'"
The "Manic" singer also said they were criticized for working while pregnant, as well as the album's horror themes.
"I knew that people were going to be like, 'For someone like Halsey, who's had miscarriages and whatever, she shouldn't have been working so hard. Would it have killed her to stay home and relax for the baby?'" she told Lowe, according to Buzzfeed.
"I think everyone who has heard me yearn for motherhood and yearn for this for so long would have expected me to write the album that was full of gratitude," Halsey continued. "And instead I was like, 'No, this s--- is so scary and so horrifying. And my body's changing and I have no control over anything. And I do finally have this thing I want. So I wake up and fear every single day that I'm going to lose it.'"
Indeed, the chart-topper has been vocal about wanting a child for many years and revealed in a since-deleted tweet that she's had three miscarriages in her life.
Halsey has endometriosis, an incurable reproductive disorder that can make it difficult - or, in severe cases, impossible - to get pregnant. They have called the disease "excruciatingly painful" and "discouraging."
"I'm 26, and I tried very hard for this pregnancy," she told Lowe. "And it was like, I'm financially independent, I'm pretty far along in my career. It feels like the right time for me to do it."
However, Halsey said their pregnancy announcement was met with disapproval and disappointment.
"I got treated like a teen mom a lot of the time, you know what I mean?" Halsey said. "Where people were like, 'Oh my god, you're so young, and you have so much to do in your career, and you're not married."
They added: "It triggered all of these feelings of shame from when I was younger."
Halsey has been in a relationship with Alev Aydin for over a year, though they were friends for years prior. The two met and fell in love when Sony Pictures partnered with Halsey to develop a movie based on her life, and Aydin was hired to write it.
The couple welcomed their first child, Ender Ridley Aydin, in July.