Demi Lovato 's new documentary "Dancing With the Devil" premiered at SXSW this week.- In the film, the singer recounts the night she relapsed, which led to her 2018 overdose.
- "I tried meth. I mixed it with molly, with coke, weed, alcohol, Oxycontin. And that alone should've killed me."
Demi Lovato opened up about addiction in her new documentary, "Dancing With the Devil," detailing the night she first relapsed in 2018.
One month after celebrating her sixth anniversary of sobriety, Lovato says she came to a breaking point. The "I Love Me" singer says she remembers feeling "miserable" at a photo shoot, and couldn't understand the point of being sober anymore.
"I picked up a bottle of red wine that night, and it wasn't even 30 minutes before I called someone that I knew had drugs on them," she said. "I'm surprised I didn't OD that night."
"I ended up at a party," she continued. "I just so happened to run into my old drug dealer from six years before - and the odds of that happening was crazy - and he had a duffel bag, and I just went to town. I went on a shopping spree."
Lovato said her "cocktail" as a teenager was cocaine and Xanax, an anti-anxiety benzodiazepine. But the night she relapsed, she "did drugs that [she'd] never done before," including methamphetamine.
"I tried meth. I mixed it with molly, with coke, weed, alcohol, Oxycontin. And that alone should've killed me," she said.
"It was only two weeks before I was introduced to heroin and crack cocaine. I started using recreationally, and obviously, you can't do that with heroin before you become addicted to it."
Lovato said it wasn't until she went to Bali a few weeks later that she realized she had "become physically dependent on it." During that trip, she wrote her 2018 single "Sober," which she has described as her "most heartbreaking song."
Just three months after relapsing, Lovato was found unconscious in her home after an accidental overdose. She said she suffered a heart attack, three strokes, and woke up in the hospital legally blind.
"Six years is a long time to be told that if you slip up, you're gonna die. And at some point, enough just becomes enough," Lovato said in the film, which premiered at SXSW this week.
"Dancing With the Devil" will be released as a four-part series on