Chrissy Teigen reveals she's struggled to 'fully' process the loss of her son Jack, especially now that she's sober
- Chrissy Teigen is opening up about the grief she's facing after the loss of her baby, Jack.
- The "Cravings" author penned an Instagram caption musing on "when things were simple."
- Teigen also shared how her sobriety is causing her to confront her issues.
Chrissy Teigen is opening up about her grief surrounding the loss of her baby, Jack.
In an Instagram post musing on "when things were simple," the "Cravings" author penned a lengthy caption about how she never fully processed the death of her child, Jack - and being sober caused her to acknowledge it.
"It kind of started when I was thinking of my book caption and typed out 'my third baby is here!!,' as in cookbook, then realized my third baby will never be here," Teigen wrote on Instagram.
"Then I realized I threw myself into the book to not think of the real, actual third baby," she continued. "I don't really feel like I fully processed jack and now that I don't have the alcohol to numb it away, things are just…there, waiting to be acknowledged."
Teigen shared last September that she and husband, John Legend, suffered a pregnancy loss after being hospitalized for excessive bleeding. It was the third child for the couple, who also have a 5-year-old daughter, Luna, and a 3-year-old son, Miles.
"We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we've never felt before," Teigen wrote back then on Instagram. "We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn't enough."
Teigen then explained why they named their baby Jack, noting that he "worked so hard to be a part of our little family, and he will be, forever."
Last December, Teigen revealed she had given up drinking and celebrated "4 weeks sober"in a video shared on social media.
During an appearance on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" back in February, Teigen shared how the loss of her baby was "transformative."
"In a way, he really saved me because I don't think I would have discovered therapy and sobriety and this path of really feeling good about myself," Teigen said of her late child.
Teigen recently shared that her third book, "Cravings: All Together: Recipes To Love," is dedicated to her late son. It will be released on October 12.