Billie Eilish opened up in an interview with Howard Stern about her experience with porn.- She said she began watching "abusive"
pornography when she was 11 years old.
Billie Eilish recently said that an early interest in pornography had damaged her
"As a woman, I think porn is a disgrace," she said on Monday's episode of "The Howard Stern Show," TMZ reported. "I used to watch a lot of porn, to be honest. I started watching porn when I was like 11."
She added, "I think it really destroyed my brain, and I feel incredibly devastated that I was exposed to so much porn."
Eilish said she believed her struggles with sleep paralysis and night terrors were rooted in her exposure to "abusive" BDSM, an acronym that refers to power play during sex.
"It got to a point where I couldn't watch anything else unless it was violent; I didn't think it was attractive," she said. "I was a virgin. I had never done anything. And so it led to problems.
"The first few times I had sex, I was not saying no to things that were not good," she continued. "And it's because I thought that that's what I was supposed to be attracted to.
"I'm so angry that porn is so loved," she added. "And I'm so angry at myself for thinking that it was OK."
Eilish, who will turn 20 on Saturday, went on to describe ways that porn created unrealistic expectations for women's bodies.
The singer-songwriter recently appeared on "Saturday Night Live" to perform "Male Fantasy," which includes lyrics about Eilish watching porn to cope with a breakup.
"I can't stand the dialogue / She would never be that satisfied / It's a male fantasy / I'm going back to therapy," she sings in the first verse.