8 of the most revealing moments in Netflix's Pamela Anderson documentary

Anderson revealed that she had a tough childhood. Her parents fought a lot and split up for a while, leading to her and her brother living on welfare with their mother briefly.

Anderson said she was also sexually abused by a babysitter.

Anderson said in the documentary that she was molested by her and it lasted three to four years. At one point, Anderson said she tried to kill the babysitter by stabbing her with a candy-cane pen.

She even told the babysitter to her face that she wanted her to die. Shortly after, the babysitter did die in a car accident.

"I thought I killed her with my magical mind and I couldn't tell anybody," Anderson said in the documentary. "But I was sure that I did it. That I wished her dead and she died. I lived with that my whole young life."

The foundation for "Pamela, a Love Story" are the boxes and boxes of diaries and legal pads Anderson has filled while chronicling her entire life.

"Basically my life is all yellow legal pads," she said in the documentary.

"I wanted to write things down in case I forgot them," she continued. "So I wrote down things thinking if something were ever to happen to me there would be evidence. Sometimes I was writing like that. Sometimes I was just writing out my feelings not thinking anyone would ever see it."

Anderson refused to read passages from the diaries for the movie, so the voiceover in the documentary is done by associate producer Dominique Hessert Owens, who was also in charge of transcribing all the diaries.

She wrote in her diary that she was with a friend who had a crush on a guy much older than them. They went to the guy's condo and her friend went upstairs with her crush.

Anderson was left behind with another guy. After the two played backgammon, he offered to give Anderson a massage. But then things escalated.

"He was 25, I was 12. He raped me." she wrote.

"I tried to forget it," Anderson said in the documentary. "I felt like it was tattooed on my forehead: 'I had sex.' What it made me was very, very shy. It made me super self-conscious."

Anderson said she felt that about herself and her body until she went and did her first shoot at Playboy.

Anderson eventually moved to the city of Vancouver, Canada when she graduated high school.

In her memoir, "Love, Pamela," she said she moved in with a man named Mike who would eventually become her fiancé.

In "Pamela, a Love Story," Anderson said she came home one day and found Mike acting very strange.

"He was having an affair with somebody. When you see your boyfriend washing his penis in the sink, that's a sign that they're probably having an affair. And I wrote down, 'Washing penis in the sink, suspicious,'" she laughed in the film.

In her book, she elaborated and said that this was the same day she got a call from Playboy photo editor Marilyn Grabowski to appear in the magazine for the first time.

She wrote that Mike got angry when he heard who was on the phone and began throwing "silverware" at her.

She made sure Grabowski's offer was serious, hung up the phone, dropped to the floor so she could dodge flying forks and knives, opened the door when it was safe to stand up, and never looked back.

Anderson and Lee's courtship might be one of the shortest in celebrity history. They had only spent time together for about four days on vacation in Cancun, Mexico in 1995 before they decided to get married.

The length of their courtship is common knowledge, but in the film, Anderson said, "We had champagne and we put ecstasy in my champagne, which I had never tried before."

"The rest is all a big blur, all a big, happy blur," she laughed. "We felt pretty invincible."

Later that night, Lee suggested to Anderson that they get married and asked her if she'd ever felt similar feelings before.

She said she had not, and Lee took a friend's skull ring off of his finger and gave it to Anderson as an engagement ring.

The couple followed through with their marriage and eventually had two sons before they split in 1998.

Anderson was pregnant with her second son, Dylan, when the couple decided to sue IEG for violating their right to privacy by distributing a stolen tape around the world.

It was important to Anderson to sue because the case was about privacy rights, she said in the film.

She wanted to participate in the deposition, but admitted, "I was nervous that it was all going to affect the health of our baby. I didn't know that I was gonna be completely humiliated."

She said lawyers from the opposing side held up "naked pictures of me" in the deposition room, which Lee wasn't allowed to enter.

"The lawyers basically said, 'You're in Playboy, you have no right to privacy,'" she continued. "They would ask about my sex life and I kept on thinking, 'How am I getting questioned about my sexuality and my preferences and my body parts and where I like to make love when it's stolen property?'"

Anderson said she felt like a "horrible woman" and a "piece of meat" in the room. She described appearing in Playboy as "empowering" but said that the stolen sex tape and the aftermath "felt like a rape."

She said she and Lee eventually decided to drop the lawsuit because she'd already had one miscarriage and they were "afraid" the stress of being deposed would cause another one.

The stress of the sex tape and having two young children put a strain on Anderson and Lee's marriage.

One night during a fight, Anderson was holding Dylan (who was an infant) when she told Lee to "grow up" and said she was going to call her parents for help.

"I didn't recognize him, he went black," Anderson recalled in the documentary. "And then I started hyperventilating, scared.

Her older son ran up to her and grabbed her leg. In her book, Anderson wrote that Lee "twisted" her arm and "threw me and Dylan against a wall."

He was charged with spousal and child abuse and served six months in jail. Anderson filed for divorce.

"It wasn't a gray area for me, it was like you can't do that," she said in the film of why she was so insistant on ending their marriage, though she loved Lee.

They attempted to reconcile a little while after but eventually split for good.

"I'd rather have love for an instant than a miserable life," she wrote in her diary. "I love being in love. And being vulnerable. And being giving. It's the only way to live life. Vulnerable."

Anderson has been married to five men throughout her life: Tommy Lee, Kid Rock, Rick Salomon (twice), Jon Peters, and Dan Hayhurst, who she divorced while the documentary was being made.

But she also opened up about the people with whom she dated but didn't make it down the aisle. This list includes Mario Van Peebles, Scott Baio, Dean Cain, Eric Nies, David Charvet, Kelly Slater, and Brett Michaels.